Selamat petang. Salaam. How else would you greet people? There are just so many ways to greet people. What the hell am I crapping about ni. Tension ah dol.

My brothers got lucky, surprisingly Danial got lucky. My friends got lucky, and I mean always. The people around me get lucky. Everyone I know gets lucky. They always get what they want, but sometimes they get what they don't expect to get. Yang aku nak aku tak dapat, yang aku taknak lagilah aku tak dapat. When am I gonna get lucky. I've been thinking and dreaming of things that would happen during the holidays, but looks like they pretty sure aren't gonna happen anytime soon or anytime at all, in fact. I shouldn't be thinking about things like this. But when you don't get something for so long, you just kinda wonder when is it going to happen, or will it even happen at all. So right now, I'm one wreck of disappointed desperate bitch, and I freaking hate that bitch. Hahaha. I never liked her before and this year has just got me hating on her guts more. well, it is what it is. Photos &videos will be uploaded nanti ye. Byebye ;)

Hey shugahhhs! I'm back home for the holidays. I'm gonna make the most of it since I only have 44 days. Dayyyum stupid dipshit. I have it all worked out, according to schedule. I'm gonna buy books, books and more books, and I'm gonna have to study. Catch up on all the work I left out on at school. haih, boring as hell, but who cares, I need to improve. I got my class and I'm not happy with it, so I'm gonna work for it just to prove to you people, I'm not as stupid as I seem to be. I'm gonna come up as the top in the class. You just wait and see. I'll show it to you guys and shove it up your faces. Beat that, son! Tawakal je la, nak buat mcm mana lg. tu lah, org semua belajar, aku buat apa. berangan. I guess I forgot that I'm in SBP. Sekolah biasa, lek ja la weh, who cares what I get. Here, woooh, one wrong step and you're out. Bapak ah. eff weh, dah insaf dah ni. For this holiday, it's more tuition, exercise*ehemm*, and sleep. And damn son. I've got to siapkan my graphics work to be sent back to school next Tuesday. Crap. Malasnye la pulak.hahahhahah. Who wants to see the rough copy of the magazine???ahahhahahahhahah. Come one, come all! The entire mag is entirely from our own sweat. wooh, cikgu tolong sikit2 je. That's how stressful it is being in the sidang redaksi this year.

I've got cool videos and pictures to share here. Wait for it..wait for it..hhahaha.adios

Welcome to the world! Alhamdulillah, Uncle Charl is blessed with a little baby boy. Little Wan Idlan Hakimi. They call him Kimi as in Kimi Raikonnen or something, that F1 driver. But Bil and I have decided that we will call him Idlan because it really is a nice name and I, personally have not heard of the name before. So, we, the cousins, will be calling him Idlan. He's a cute little baby. He's really fair and has got rosy cheeks. He's gonna be one hell of a looker when he grows up but he's got sepet eyes from his daddy. Haha. Can't wait to bully him when he grows up. It's payback for all the times Uncle Charl bullied when I was a kid. Muahaha :)

My uncle has a new baby! His first one. It's a boy! And he has the most beautiful name I have ever heard so far. haha. Maybe I'm just saying that cos' he's my cousin. haha. I haven't seen him yet. He was born last Monday. I'm sad because everyone was there to greet him upon his arrival except me. I saw the pictures Nabil took. He is sooo cute! He looks like my other cousin, but he has his mum's mouth. I can't wait to see him tomorrow! I'm so glad it's a boy though cause I can't cope well with little girls. hahahahahahahah. And that means, I'm still the only girl on that side of the family! woooooooooh. I'm bringing along my own baby 40D tomorrow and we'll be taking pictures of little Idlan. Furthermore, I'll be making money out of it! hagahahahhaha :D

"Kalau kita cakap mungkin, maksudnya kita tak bersyukur dengan apa yang ada di depan kita"
-Miasara, Papadom.

I loved Papadom. Afdlin Shauki makes the best movies. It was a great movie, we all loved it. It's great to watch it with the family especially with your dad. I mean, it's called PAPAdom for a reason. so go go go! I had a great time tonight. Jaja knows why *kening2* ahahhahahahahhahahah.all mine bebeh, all mine! :DD

I haven't studied squat. Dayum. sedar la fatin, sedar lah!

I can't look at certain pictures. It makes me go, "Eff off you faggot!"
Last three weeks was fun. I had lots of fun at school. Finals is next Tuesday, I think I'm going to suck donkey balls for my finals. I'm scared. I don't want to go to block B next year. I want to be in the top three classes. Aghhh. Bapak bodoh ah I'm thinking about this. I don't worry about stuff like this. muahah. I can't wait for school to endddd! Then I've got a month all to myself! wheeeeee. Tomorrow is going to be boring. I'll be home alone while my parents go to work and my brother goes to school. Sheeesh. I'll be home, doing stupid stuff. Or, I could just sleep. yeahhh. I'm bored. And still waiting for a miracle to happen. wakakak. whatthehell. now i have to go type out Bil's speech. The lazy ass just won't do it himself.

I'm going back to school in like an hour or so I guess and I'm dreading every single minute of it. The past week has been like heaven eventhough it got rough towards the end because you showed up. I may be gone for a while, I mean, a long while, and I don't think I'll be seeing you around anymore (YAY! and shit) so I just hope things get better for you. I just happen to know, for a fact that you're going through a rough patch, being heartbroken or whatever. I guess now you know how I feel, eh? Stupid feelings aside, as much as I sort of don't like you for doing and not doing all the things you did or did not do, I pretty much still do like you and care about you. For instance, hearing your name still gives me the ta-thump feeling in my chest and seeing you makes my insides go insane like a roller-coaster. I really don't know why I'm typing this out, probably cos' I'm hoping that someday, somehow you'll read this blog and know how I feel about you, even though I'm kinda worried you won't know it's about you. haha. And deep down, I guess I kinda already know that I won't have a freaking rat's chance with you. As in ever. Although I'm hoping otherwise. I wish you a better future and goodluck for everything that's coming up. I hope you'll do well and I know it's corny and cheesy to sign off with lyrics or quotes that I like, eventhough I always do it. And it's cornier and cheesier still when I'm signing off with malay lyrics. haha. but what the heck.

Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

Senang je dulu. It was so easy being away and not seeing people for 6 months. Balik je and everything goes crumbling down. J's been a real rock lately. Thanks for being around to listen to me bitch and complain about stuff. Angau pun ada. Haha. I had fun yesterday guys. Let's do it more during semester break. woooh :)

I want you, just exactly like I used to
And baby this is only bringin me down...
I said I want you, just exactly like I used to
And baby this is only bringin me down

ok fine, so i know now. but i still want you.i don't know why. just kiiillllll me already. cos i already feel like i'm dying seeing u heartbroken over others but never me.

Chuck: I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went, you caught up with me. So I had to come back.

Blair: I wanna believe you. But I can't. You've hurt me too many times.

Chuck: You can believe me this time.

Blair: Oh... That's it?

Chuck: I love you, too.

Blair: But can you say it twice?

Blair: No I'm serious, say it twice.

Chuck: I love you. That's two. I love you, that's three. I love you, four.

Oh damn rat's ass, I love this two people. I want this. ahhahahah. Season2 done. Season 3, here I come! :)